Optimism in bullying

My name is Olivia. I'm 15 years old and I'm a freshman in high school. I decided to create this blog as a way for people to either somehow manage to find optimism in what I post, or for myself to find optimism. I don't know which yet. :)

I guess that's my little intro. Now I want to blog about something that's on my heart lately.


I have been bullied since 3rd grade, I'm hearing impaired and 3rd grade was the time people have began to realize that I'm"different". In 3rd grade, I decided to stop wearing my hearing aid so I could start to feel "normal". BIGGEST. MISTAKE. OF. MY. LIFE. I don't know why I thought I'd be "normal" just for not wearing my hearing aid. But as the days moved on I started hearing more and more comments and sneers on how loud I spoke, on how "weird" I talk, how teachers needed to repeat things 5 times before I could hear them. It's was horrid, but I pushed through it... Then in 4th grade was the year I started to realize that this whole "not wearing my hearing aid" thing wasn't going to work out. So I slowly begun to wear it again. I felt happier because I thought the bullying would stop... But no. It didn't, mostly because I need to have hearing aid batteries with me at all times in case my hearing aid dies. It was one day where I took out a pack of hearing aid batteries that a girl walks by, takes the batteries out of my hand, and throws them away. That day I learned that it will be tough... To fast forward to 5th grade, that was the year I finally realized that this wasn't going to stop. I was bullied verbally and even a little physically. I got in trouble for defending myself and standing up for myself. I was then moved to homeschool after my mom didn't want me to be bullied like I was anymore. It only got worst in homeschool. I was cyberbullied relentlessly and finally... In 8th grade. I kind of had peace. I went to a charter school and the bullying was minimal.


Here I am in 9th grade today... Going to a public high school and it's happening again. But not as often... One girl gave out my phone number to a butch of people and acted like she was the guy I like... Another group of girls call me retard in the halls. But, this is high school and people won't be accepting of you. Especially if you're different. All I can do is remain optimistic and remember that this is life... And that people will hurt you. It's been 6 years and it's time to forget the past, forget the idiots I'm dealing with now, and focus on the future!

I am in no way shape or form asking for pity from sharing this story... I want other people to think of my story as a reminder to be strong and to remind optimistic no matter what life throws at you.


Well that's all for now....


Olivia